Okay I'm pissed as fuck right now. My parents are such fucking assholes. All they do is attempt to control my life to the point where I cant even breath. I call my friend Erica on the phone from time to time (okay, it's like every night) which is long distance. I have money, I can pay the phone bill... but nooooooooo that doesn't matter. It's their phone line and they just cant stand it when I call her for some reason. It's not that they dont like Erica its because its hurting some pride that they have or something to let me do something that I want to do. I'm getting over it now and starting to cool down... breathing. I dont know anymore. I just cant live with them. I am going to die... commit suicide or something. I know that looking back on this I'll laugh but I just don't know. Anyway, let me get on with what happened today. I went to school and it was a pretty normal day accept for the fact that I forgot my cigarettes and I forgot my lunch money. So I was jonesing for cigarettes and starving all day. When my mom picked me up (because she wont let me drive to college) from school we went to Taco Bell so that was nice of her. Of course it is her fault that I didn't eat lunch in the first place. After school I went home after having to get groceries with my mom. How embarassing? I hate going everywhere with my mom. She just pisses me off and we yell at eachother all day. I'll talk to you tomorrow. bye.

+ posted by Matthew @ 9/10/2003 09:21:27 PM

Hey everybody. I moved to a new server today because I wanted the blog to have a touch of my taste. Anyway, I think I'm going to attempt to keep improving it so expect some changes around here. Anyway, Sorry I didn't get back to you all last night to report my happenings of the day. I was really busy trying to set up the blog on a new site. I searched and searched and finally I found one that worked! Anyway here is what is going on with me today. I am sitting at home watching television and am going to start doing some homework after I'm done with this post. Nothing really exciting is going on here though. I talked to an old friend of mine today on the phone that I havent talked to in a while. Part of my mind tells me that I shouldnt be talking to her because she was one of the bad people in my life. ANother part of my body tells me that it cant hurt anything because she has moved so far away. I found out today which part I should listen to. It turns out that her boyfriend, who was a realllllly bad influence on me, is in jail. I already knew he was in jail but I thought he was in jail in Ohio not Florida. He is in jail in my county still and she wants me to write him and maybe even visit him. I dont know what to do! I dont think that I should have anything to do with him. I probably shouldn't and I wont. I will not do it. It's bad for me and he is bad for me and I dont know! I just dont want to go back to the way of life that I had before and I think talking to him will put me on a road to get there. I'll write more later but it's time for homework. BYE!

+ posted by Matthew @ 9/9/2003 01:14:13 PM

Hey whats up? I'm at school! I'm sitting in a life skills class right now where the teacher is doing nothing accept running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I'm such a nerd because we are in the computer lab and while everybody else is looking at a blank screen and trying to listen to the teacher talk I'm either playing games or posting a blog to you. Today has been an okay day... pretty boring though. Nothing juicy to write about accept for that my teacher in this class is a freakin weirdo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, I'll talk to you later tonight for a full recap of the day. bye!

+ posted by Matthew @ 9/8/2003 01:32:57 PM

Hey everybody. Sorry I didnt come back yesterday. Everything turned out okay although it will be boring for yall to here I'm sorry but you're not the reason I do this... I am. Anyway I'm here to just say what happened yesterday and today. Yesterday me and my dad worked on this waterfall thing that we have been working on for over a month now on. The waterfall will go in my tank of animals and will be fun for my frogs, toads, and mudbug (crawfish). We finally finished it yesterday after a long day of working on it. We had to let the glue dry for the night and after church this morning we went to work on cleaning out the old tank and setting up the new waterfall. After setting it up guess what???? The waterfall doesn't work. Just my luck... Anyway my dad fixed the problem so now half of the waterfall works... greeeaaat so finally after about another hour of work we had the entire waterfall up and running. I think that all of the critters really like their new home. Their old home was kinda nasty and dirty and stuff. It reallllly needed to be cleaned. I look forward to having a whole lot of fun with this waterfall. It will also help me get to sleep at night because the sound is sooo soothing. And another good thing about it is that I made it! I've never made anything like this before. I can't believe it I'm so proud of myself. Anyway tomorrow is another wonderful day at manatee community college. aren't you looking forward to what I write about tomorrow? Aiight peace out yo... talk to you tomorrow.

+ posted by Matthew @ 9/7/2003 08:34:48 PM

Hey everybody... its a new lovely day in paradise... right. Anyway I'm so fucking pissed because my parents are being dung beetles. They refuse to let me do anything at all. They wont let me leave and go do stuff with my friends so I ask if we (my parents and I) can do something instead like go to a movie. I get this long heartfelt response about how they have spent that past two months doing nothing but worrying about me so they have catching up to do around the house. I see my dad working on our doorbell that hasnt worked for like five years and I get kinda upset. I had to run to the computer to post this because it's pissing me off so much. Anyway, I'll probably post more later. cya

+ posted by Matthew @ 9/6/2003 12:25:31 PM

Hey everybody! I doubt that many people are reading this... but anyway. My name is Matt and I am starting my online journal today September 5 2003! It's very exciting and I am very happy. I think that this is something that will help me get things off of my chest. Even if nobody reads it I dont care... Anyway let me get on with what happened today.

Well today started out kinda good. It was a rainy day thanks to Tropical Storm Henri. I hope the weather gets better because I hate walking around with an umbrella. I went to school (I'm a student at Manatee Community College) and to my first two classes. Went to lunch and to my next class. In that class we had a quiz (which I didnt study for and only got a 10% (ouch!)) and we were aloud to leave. I went to the student union found my friends and hung out for a little while. I went to my next class when it was time and guess what? The freaking teacher had us in there for five minutes and said "GOODBYE!" Everybody got up and left so that kinda sucked. I went BACK to the student union and did some homework because all of my friends were in class. After waiting 45 minutes for my next class to start I went to it. I saw somebody that I knew and they told me that my next class was cancelled. I was like WHAT????????? I went in there and the teacher said "Yeah... the weather is just too bad." So basically after I took that quiz about 2 hours ago I could have left. Little did I know that the rest of the afternoon would be useless to me. Anyway, I'm going to go now... thats all that happened to me today. Hopefully something interesting will happen tomorrow and I can tell you about it. Anyway, talk to you later and have a great day!

+ posted by Matthew @ 9/5/2003 07:50:50 PM